mehh.
Lim Kan Wei
22/04/1989
Nan Hua Secondary School
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Enlisting on Sept 11 1130hr.
Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 5:25 AM
如果爱你需要一个理由，那千百个理由也不如我一句：我爱你。
thought of this line randomly. =/
this is one of those times when a few things happen at once - can't get to sleep/don't feel like sleeping + bored with absolutely nothing else to do.
what's left to do in this case, is to let my mind wander about, thinking about those 'wu eh bo eh' [hokkien].
sigh. about two more weeks and i'm officially a third year student of ngee ann polytechnic electronic and computer engineering division network systems and security student. wow, now let's see how it looks like if the course name had not changed. ngee ann polytechnic electronic and computer engineering division internetworking and communications student. what a handful.
just one more year and i'll be serving [read: wasting time] in ns for two years. wonder if i can still stick to my plan then. tentatively, i'm thinking of going to australia to get my bachelor's degree after ns. i'll be continuing on with networking, i guess. the course is 1.5 year. financially wise i'm more or less able to go there and survive, but i can't imagine staying there by my own for 1 month, needless to say 1.5 year. whether i should carry on in networking or not, i guess i have to. i can't say that i excel in networking, but i don't think that i'm bad at it either. then there's the matter of the certifications. ccna huh. hopefully i can get that while i'm still in singapore within the next 2-3 years. but seriously, there's no motivation for me at all except for potential future job prospects.
why not local uni? to be honest, i haven't given a thought about going to local uni at all, and at the rate i'm going, there's no way in hell i'm able to get into one based on my less than ideal gpa. it isn't that bad, relatively speaking, but it's alot lower than what i had hoped to get. there're 2 more semesters to go, maybe i can still pull it up to make the overall gpa start with a 3, rather than a 2.
and regarding studying overseas, if you were to ask me to go right now, no matter what, i wouldn't bear to. friends, loved ones, family members, etc. too many things that i can't bear to let go off. but things may change in the future, but it's precisely that, that i still can't make up my mind. sigh, guess i'll have to deal with it when it comes.
more or less, the consensus for those who don't want to continue on in networking, they want to get into a uni to pursue a degree of their liking. so in the end, everyone will still go on their separate ways. it gets depressing whenever i were to think about what's in store for us few years later.
it kind of conflicts though. being in attachment makes me want it to end real quickly, but there would only be one semester left to graduation when it ends. if the previous few weeks over at ibm is any indication of what i'd have to face as an network engineer, then i'd rather stay as a student all my life. but reality will come barking up my ass whenever i try to not face it. this week's over, and as of now, there's still 131 days, 00 hours, 58 minutes, 04 seconds left till 8 august 6pm. no, i didn't go count it. i used a countdown timer widget in my mac. that's about 19 weeks left.
friends come and go, that's why we treasure friendship. the longest friend i've had was my primary school friend i've known since primary 5. up till now, this year will be the 9th year that i've known him. we used to be in contact often until secondary school. from often, it became less often. then up till poly, where we won't meet up or talk even on msn for months, only to break the silence when either of us remembers the other to ask for a favor, etc. honestly speaking, i don't make a good friend. i call my friends names jokingly, i poke fun at them, i laugh at their expenses, but have i ever reacted as nicely as they did when they do the same to me? i don't even know. often i lament about drifting away from friends, but come to think of it, i've never really did make much of an effort to keep us bonded together. maybe i've deserved it huh. a girl had said this of me, 'you don't make a good friend, but you'll make a good bf.' ignore the good bf part for now, because i've no idea about that, but even someone else other than me myself think that i'm not a good friend. true, i'm incredibly lazy. i'll only help other people if it doesn't inconvenience me too much. and in certain cases, especially for guys, whenever they need a listening ear, i'd listen, but instead of comforting words that they would expect to get from me, they would get a lashing from me instead. and i won't even bother to pretend to listen whenever they were to share something they are interested in whereas i'm not. haha. F6. wonder who came up with that. now 5 of us are in attachment, 1 isn't. and 2 of us are more or less 'anti-social'. so it makes me wonder whether F6 will remain as F6 till the end or not.
nyaha. it's already 5.21am. and i'm thirsty. still bored, and slightly sleepy. it better not rain later on. zz.
good morning people. :)
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