sleeping as soon as i'm done with this entry. highly likely that i won't get to see the sun today. LOL.
hahaha, there's something that i've been wanting to blog about but haven't, cos i was too lazy to. =/
THURSDAY!
knew in advance that i'd be stuck alone in the office with jiade, so i found myself an excuse to sleep in late. kekeke. reached office at 10++am.
LOL. our only conversation for the whole day.. lemme show you.
1130 PROMPTLY.
JD: eh, you eating lunch?
ME: oh, nope. you go ahead ba.
JD: orh okay. by the way, jasmine not coming today leh.
ME: ya, i know. she on site ma.
JD: ya. then i go for lunch first.
ME: kaes. bye.
LOLLLL. THEN THEN THEN, around 5.30++pm lydat, jasmine and jason came back to the office to do some paperwork or something. then we didn't know cos they took the seats all the way at the other end, until jason came over to our area.
conversation when jason came over.
ME: eh? you come back for what?
JA: got some work to settle.
ME: oh okay..
JD: jasmine got come back with you ma?
JA: ya.
ME: ...
JD: come back for what?
JA: oh, she got some paperwork to finish up.
JD: wa, then she go on site just now for what?
JA: to help louis [project manager] with paperwork lo.
JD: got you can le ma..
JA: louis say to get her along lo, if not she always in the office..
JD: oh.. then you never help her with the paperwork..
JA: .. i also got things to do one ley.
-blah blah blah-
meanwhile, i was looking to one side, trying to hide my laughter. LOLLLL. so obvious please.
then jason and me went down to the cafe downstairs for a quick bite and came back up.. jiade went home first le. then me and jasmine packed up and went off, since i meeting nor, ly, rh, kl, david at lau pa sat.. then jasmine told me that she knew that jiade likes her for quite sometime le. LOLLL. i was laughing lorh, omg. they say pang guan ze qing. but kns, obvious until she ownself also realised. HAHAHAHAHA. then jasmine also quite scared of jiade liao.. sigh. don't really have anything personal against him la. just that i don't really like his attitude at times, AND, he's abit weird. =x
don't like his attitude.. mainly cos he has a reason for everything little thing he does/say [or what i call, excuse]. initially i spotted his mistakes or whatever before, then i corrected him, he'll go, you think i don't know mehh.. purposely one ma.. -.-. i know some people will say that as a joke, that one i can tell the difference. but his was totally serious one lo. gawdly. and alot of weird weird reasons also can come out la. can't recall any le, since i don't talk to him anymore. HAHAHAHAHA. after two weeks i think. fwah, my source of entertainment. kekeke. oh oh, recalled something.
once jasmine asked him, how come you always go home after work de? never go find friends meh?
he'll go, aiyoh, weekend then go out ma.. weekdays work, after that so tired liao, still go out meh..
then after we went on site, ranjini asked if we had any plans for the weekend, he went, aiyoh, wait for pay to come first ma..
o.0. how convenient.
okay nvm. another topic!
went onsite with JIA OMG DE, along with ranjini. he.. damn blur cock la. shan't say stupid. =xxx he supposed to verify the serial numbers of equipment found in the comms room/data center, then write down the location of the equipment on the list [such as: data center, level 4], and he keep writing in the wrong row. -.- eg: 5th item supposed to be in comms room, level 2, he'll write in the 6th row instead. then, when we are supposed to look out for the serial number, he was trying to find the corresponding serial number in the part number column. o.0" i got tired of correcting him [about 3 or 4 times] and i jitao took over what he was doing instead. -.-
okay. enough of complaints. he's still my source of entertainment after all. kekeke.
haha.. in chronological order la.. some i not so sure, but thanks nevertheless. haha. received a few from people that i never expected them to remember. so touched. *sobs* might have missed out a few too. =/
EDIT: MESSAGE DELIVERED
on another note!
shit sia. why has jasmine got to go on site. =(
I'M LEFT ALONE WITH JIADE, OMFG.
total silence man. hahahahaha. i think i'm gonna skip all the lunch breaks that i'd have to spend alone with him. kns. totally cannot talk to him one ley.. not that i really tried la, of course. kekeke. arhh, i'm hungry. :'(
EDIT:
shuxian's birthday chalet
date: 3rd May 2008 dress code: black [just entertain the birthday girl la hor.] helpers are welcome.
for now, i'm helping out la. nor should be also. keke. i'll drag him along.
so many things to say, but i don't seem to be able to put it to words.
when are friends no longer friends? when they fall out with each other? when they no longer share anything in common? when they begin to dislike each other? or when one starts to build up a wall that the other could never seem to breach?
if friends are destined to remain as just that, then so be it. i'd rather lose a love than to lose a friend altogether.
if i've to have my heart bleed to see you happy, then i'll gladly bleed myself dry just to see your smile. EDIT: here's something which made my monday blues a deeper shade of blue, and to make you all starting having them too.
IT'S APRIL 21ST ALREADY!!!!!!
INTERIM REPORT FIRST DRAFT IS FUCKING DUE ON MAY 12, HOLY FUCK. THAT'S LIKE .. ONE, TWO.. THREE.. WEEKS?! GG-ED.
EDIT YET AGAIN: will told me something just now. hm. guess it's better to show it.
[11:20] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: lol ya noe i noticed somthings [11:20] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: form pics from year 1 till now [11:21] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: u like slowly becoming emo sia [11:21] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: from smile smile become serious serious become fierce fierce [11:22] wake; .: lol. [11:22] wake; .: you gay. [11:22] wake; .: keke. [11:23] wake; .: maybe ba. [11:23] wake; .: haven't really go notice. [11:35] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: LOL [11:35] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: if i dun gay who care bout u sia [11:35] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: JKJK [11:35] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: no lah juz notice loh [11:35] wake; .: loll. [11:36] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: the pics last time like wah sibei siao on type face now is like -_- [11:36] wake; .: keke.. i also don't know sia. [11:36] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: LOL muz gay wif u till u siao on again liao muhahaha [11:36] wake; .: no thanks.. =xx [11:37] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: HAHA [11:37] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: of coz [11:37] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: of coz [11:37] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: i ish no gay... i jis juz sibei gay nia [11:37] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: jkjk [11:37] wake; .: LOL. i know you sibei gay. [11:38] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: where got sia [11:39] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: i is stright de [11:39] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: i love gals...err [11:39] wake; .: lol. [11:39] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: i shall consider guys but not at the moment LOL [11:39] William--Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned: unless i insane [11:40] wake; .: LOL.
will's considering guys!! eligible ones, please register over here at the counter for an interview~
okay, that's not the point. again, this is something that i've heard recently that i haven't really thought about it, but makes lots of sense once i do. maybe it's the specs huh. LOL. that i don't really look happy even if i were to smile in recent photos.
haha. i've no idea why, to be honest. sometimes i've the feeling that i'm right there, along with everyone, but i don't really belong there.
anyway, thanks to everyone who turned up yesterday and to those that didn't, screw you! LOL. no la. i appreciate it, and the present you all chipped in. many thanks. =DD
anyway, yesterday was fun in a way, but i guess the last minute changes here and there, and the indecisiveness sort of spoilt everyone's mood hur. well, obviously it's not only the indecisiveness that spoilt people's moods, but nevermind. that's not the point.
many apologies to those who didn't enjoy themselves.. sorry aye. but thanks for bearing with it still.
-.- once again, shit happens. just can't have peaceful moments last. zz. nevermind. i don't really want to talk about it either.
i haven't submitted my last week's weekly report sia. gonna get fucked. i'll get down to it this weekend, i swear. .. okay, i better not swear. =/ sian sian sian.
but not bad la, yesterday. had things to do. to verify serial numbers of equipment with the records in the database. 4500+ entries to do, divided by the three of us. me, jasmine, jiade. was quite funny, somehow. i knew that i'd have to do the work the first thing in the morning ma, but i was late, as usual. by the time i got started, it was 10.15.. somewhere there. then i got started l0.. do, do, do.. breaktime, i was at 760+. thanks to jiade, we always go off at 1130 for breaks. -.- "must catch the bus ma~" then jasmine finished 1000 le. she did from 9am. quite possible if you work smart la.. you see one whole list of the same equipments with similar serial numbers, then verify few here and few there from the list, if the same, then the whole list the same le.. that's how lo. then jiade, by lunchtime, he only finished 300+. LAWL. =/
then we teased him ma.. and he got defensive and said 'i do it at normal speed de leh. like you all, do so fast for what. you all confirm play cheat one.' then i forgot what jasmine said to him, then everyone keep quiet and continued doing.
hahaha. the thing was that we were only expected to do about 300 to 400 each by around 2-3pm, but by the deadline, i already did 1018 entries, jasmine still stuck at 1000, cos she did from 1000 to 1999 and didn't carry on. jiade.. =/ around 700. then we just sent to waifong, the guy who gave us the assignment. then wf replied, said to rest while he check.. but i continued doing la..
jd: eh don't need to do liao. me: i know. just continue for fun lo. jd: but he told us to rest ley. me: i know. jd: ...
kns. he so eager to slack sia.
then wf called jiade and asked us to continue doing. LOL. i was laughing to myself when i heard the conversation. then BEST PART. if 4500+ divide by 3, one should do around 1500 RIGHT?! then end up, jd only did 1000, jasmine did 1500+, i did 2000. good job man. best was he kept bugging jasmine to do.
jd: eh you do la.. only 500+ ma.. jasmine: huh. you do la.. jd: cannot.. i do very slow.. you do much faster ma. jasmine: nvm what, not urgent ma.. jd: but i haven't even finish my 1000 lehh.. jasmine: ... ... okay okay i do.
nice guy right. keke. thankfully he's in E4. LOLLLLLLLLL. gg.
then again, this is just my observation. i've nothing against him.. *acts innocent*
hm, what else. nothing ba, i guess. luckily i already completed my work before i left work yesterday. cos wf said have to submit to him before lunch. and i reached the office at.. 1130+? LOLLL. see, that's why it's best to get everything done asap. heehee. .. .... . other than the weekly reports. =/
INTERIM REPORT!! GOOD GAME~!!! less than a month's time~!!
kena scammed by norvin hang chun ming yesterday sia. LOL. went to some buddhist praying session, and i became a 'member' of the fo tang. =/ though i don't intend to go there anymore la. keke.
started when i think me and nor took cab home, then he told his address to the driver, then the driver said, near the thai temple there is it.. then i was surprised by it, so i asked nor about it. because i was slightly interested in knowing more about thai buddhism. for curiosity's purposes. not because i wanna be a thai buddhist. then he invited me to some 'event' on sunday, which was yesterday. and end up i was offering joss sticks to guan yin. -.- good job.
but okay la, like he said lo, the experience ba. like the few times i went to city harvest's services at expo. holy shit indeed. not recommended to go there more than once, if you just want to experience. cos once you go there, the other people will psycho you to go again, and again, then tell you all the shits about holy spirit, etc. =/ but the pastor, richard kong is a very good talker. that i've to admit. then as for yesterday's.. pretty interesting la. i mean, it's not often you get to see the other more personal side of your friends ma. putting christians aside, you don't really see friends going to temples la, fo tang, etc to pray right? LOL. yeah, quite.. funny la. LOL.
and i learnt some skychickens wor~ wor wor. =/ okay la, not to be sarcastic about it la. hm. to be honest, it's pretty unconvincing to call them heavenly secrets when i know the stuffs within the hour i was there. either they're too desperate, or they're too trusting, i don't know. but bloody hell, the vow they made me take.. kns. i won't say it's vicious la, but bad karma man, if i were to break that vow. can't really remember those details la, but something like if i'm dishonest to the religion/buddha, etc, then i'll have to suffer or what. that's only one small part. nuffed.
nor's friend was pretty entertaining. LOLLL. shan't say what are the contents of his .. entertainment, at the expense of someone. hahaha. laughed quite abit. =/ nice buddy sia, nice.. =xxxxxxx
TADAAH. i reached office on time. the first time in .. weeks. LOL. slept less than 3hours only lo, head's hurting already. :( itaii~
EDIT:
oh ya, jasmine just arrived. first time she so late sia. AND HOR, AND HOR. hm.. i shan't say what i think, later kena accused of thinking too much, so i shall say what i observe.
jiade reached about the same time as me.. then our seats are mobile de.. means free seating la. first come first served. then we'll always pick the same seats. so when jiade reached, he saw jasmine still not there yet ma.. usually she's the earliest cos she stays at tampines only.. and he helped her to book the place sia. by placing his bag on the table of her seat. kns, a few times i late and i don't say anything right, both of them won't bother to help me book my seat one wor. =/ only when i say help me to book place, then they will put a bag on my seat. -.- not that i mind the fact that they won't help me automatically la. just that i OBSERVE that, jiade will ONLY help jasmine automatically. kekeke.
don't really have anything to blog about lately. =/
hm. went to catch a run, papa, run with nor, yingwei, liying yesterday night at junction8. then jason was there as well, but he watched street kings.
RPR not bad, i think. just that i was a little wtf-ed when liuluoying sang some gospel song. LOL. thankfully it wasn't some musical kind of show, cos i didn't know what the movie was going to be about prior to watching it.
what left me wondering was why didn't louiskhoo go find his family after the whole incident arh? he's been legally declared dead, and no one else think otherwise, so he should be safe to meet up with his family ma.. then he ended up praying that he could meet up with his family at some church.
finally got work to do sia!! but kns, give pay liao, then remember the existence of me huh. LOL.
kena two onsites at the same day. so for now, i'm waiting for ranjini and jasmine to come back from their lunch, then go with them to tanjong pagar area, most likely is shenton way, to do tagging. =/ nothing much, but STILL, it's something to do.
then vincent [supervisor], called me up yesterday afternoon. later going to do some packing at Media Development Authority.. shouldn't take more than 2 hours, but it starts at 5.30pm. good job sia. but okay la, compensated with a half day off on friday, so it's all good.
but not sure if i can make it in time to sing k with them later on. but see how la. at most go sing for one hour or two nia lo. better than nothing i guess.
HM HM. what else ley, oh yeah. ibm's feeling generous, i think. they're giving me 100 more than what was stated initially. but hoho, it's something good, i shall not complain. :D :D :D
kekeke. scully just nice, later onsite is at vanco. LOLLL.
but i think if really that just nice, i might as well go buy 4D plus toto plus bigsweep, etc etc. =/
AND AND AND, yesterday was damn sinful la, but fwah, i love it man.
had dinner at waraku. the unagi is damn nice can. soft until like melt in the mouth lydat. *drools* but too bad the rest like don't dare to eat, since it's eel. -.- it's essentially just another type of fish. but nvm, i get to eat all the unagi all by myself. then ordered nigiri b [5 kinds of sushi or was it 10?] for 15 bucks, then 5 kinds of sashimi for 28 bucks. was so tempted to eat the fatty tuna [ootori], but 3 pieces for 18 bucks. =/ better not splurge ba. so tempted so tempted so tempted. =(
went to walk around clarke quay for a short while and ended up at fashion bar, drinking a little. =/ okay la, the drinks we had were pretty mild. then went home liao lo.
and now i'm having indigestion. must be cos of all the food i had last night. LOL. while eating, i don't feel full ley.. could have, and would had ordered more if i didn't have a budget. then after paying up and walking around, then i realised that i was already quite full. LOL.
kns, then nor was saying to go for the rides.. sure cannot one please. the area will rain vomit, i swear. plus i'm quite unwilling to spend 25 bucks for a few seconds of thrill. =/ but we'll see. if everyone goes, i don't really have a choice, do i. :'(
fug, now i'm hungry, but i don't have the appetite. =/
nya, back again. i don't feel like using my brain.
just placed a few routers and switches together and linked them up and i closed the simulation shit.
don't feel like doing any configuration for now. wait till i NEED to learn and/or practise then i would do that.
kns sian. maybe i'm just suffering from a lack of sleep. but i doubt so. already overslept quite alot liao. but come to office also no difference sia. good job man. -.-
lol. i don't even feel like talking to jasmine or jiade. nothing to talk about la. even conversations between us are just polite conversations.
hm.. btw, those who're having IAP, go check your timetable for your class ley. i'm in E3. =/ speaking of that, there's someone i'm worried about.. =/ but forget it i guess. see how when the school semester starts.. for us, i mean.
LOL. don't know why but i observed that jiade is slowly trying to get close to jasmine. maybe i'm reading too much into things, but hey, i'm usually good at this de ley. nvm, it's only been a month, i'll see how it goes. but the thing is jasmine already has a boyfriend. LOL. =/ arh well. to each his own, i'll just sit one side and watch. while surfing net, and refreshing my bloody inbox for any news of work.
remember i mentioned about i might go onsite? there haven't been any news about it since then. good job right. -.-
sigh. i feel like getting a DSLR camera. try as i might, i just can't get my PnS camera to produce photos as good as a DSLR even though my PnS camera is 10megapixels. =/ i wanna learn photography ley. keke. there's photography IS module for our third year right? i can't remember le. if there is, then i know i've ranked it as one of my choices. most likely i'd go for that ba. keke. if no, then nvm. i can learn from someone i know. but it's expensive ley. about 800+ to 1k for a dslr camera. but worth the investment i think.
look at the photos inside. pro-ly taken right? and the person isn't even a professional photographer la. but he got the skills, which i don't have, of course. i'm not saying that a dslr camera would make all the difference, but i wanna be able to do that. keke.
what else arh. oh ya, the headporter black beauty bean shoulder bag. i should be getting there soon. see if i got spare moolah for this month or not. might have, might not. then my LG KS20~~ <33 it's around 500+ after trade-in ley. sian sia. still so ex. =( wait till all my 'income' for this month come in le, then i plan ba. i'd prolly end up being as poor or poorer than march. then i still need to get a few more sets of office attire. sigh. i think most likely i need to postpone getting the phone. so many things i want to get, so many things i can't afford to get. hm.. also a belt for casual wear. but aiyah, not among my prioritised wants. LOL. since i haven't came across any nice looking ones. and bloody hell, no armani xchange plox. =/ not that i want to be unique, but i don't want to be common.
oh oh.. can someone tell me where to get rugby shirts aka long sleeved polo tee? the one which i wore not long ago.. it got stained by don't know what red dye when my mum was putting it out to dry. i was fking dulan somemore. i liked that shirt, and only wore it twice or thrice nia, then cannot wear it anymore le. fucked. then i looked for it online where i first got it, but don't have le, cos they clear the stocks every end of the season.
sigh. i keep typing out walls of text, and it's barely 3pm. -.-
i seriously need to remind myself to do things, otherwise i'd just bathe and sleep the moment i get home. -.-
week five's weekly report!!! .. ...
okay la, actually that's about it.
i can do it now if i wanted to, but the thing is that i don't want to. =x
laziness kills the wake. .. fine, not funny.
things have been pretty much the same on both ends. =/
no progress either way. essentially, nothing happened and nothing is happening.
sigh, so bored. if this carries on, i don't really want to come to work anymore, i swear. things are just so stagnant. come to work, set up my laptop, secure it to the table, wait for the screen to finish flickering and pissing my ass off, surf net, go for break/lunch and resume, pack up, go home. rinse and repeat. seriously damn sian. it's better than being over at uob, but not much, seriously not much.
i've no idea why am i feeling so irritable recently. and singapore is seriously pathetic. what's there to do or where's there to go after work on weekdays? where else is there except for town, and town and town? __ sia. what, i'm at expo, the few others are here and there, where else to go other than town. and then i've to take the train and some tard will just jump cos he felt like wasting the XX years of his life, and the few hours of everyone elses' time. thanks to that, the bloody mrt drivers are driving like snails now. good job arh. to make yourself get cursed and sweared at even when you're dead.
and being a guy sometimes pisses me till no end. if you're a guy, you're obliged to take the initiative, to know what to do, to know what to say, to know what the fuck. seriously damn sick of it. sometimes i take the initiatives, but there will not be any reply at the other end, so what can i do other than to try again? and again and again? and yet nothing will ever happen if i were to sit back and be passive.
forget it man, i really don't feel like doing anything. and i haven't even had lunch yet. thought of asking the people out for a dinner, but damn stupid sia, just for a dinner then go home arh? need to get so many people meh. then to get them also sian. have to call, message, etc. forget it la. kns, i'll settle it on my own. at most don't eat lo. hate to eat alone outside.
maybe i'd prefer to be alone for now also. abit tiring when conversations keep revolving about certain subjects where i don't feel like talking about for now. the attachment for example. the first week of april's going to be over, so it's about one month left till the first draft of the interim report is due. and so, where and how the bloody fuck am i supposed to come out with a 40 page report? just tell me la. it's fucked up if i end up getting a mere pass for my IAP at the end of it. i'd be more than happy if i just had one thing to do per day. but good job, there's none. there's not even a single thing to do per week. fucked up. then obviously i don't feel like listening nor talking about attachment when there's nothing for me to talk about, isn't it. and don't give me the bullshit about taking the initiative to request for work. i requested for work the moment i came back from uob to ibm. there's none. i complained about nothing to do, they ask me to wait. -.-
fuck la. jitao sian.
forget it, i think i'll just play with the network simulation piece of shit that eats up the minimal ram that the bloody T30 has.
and how stupid a guy's ego is. haha. nevermind, not going to touch on that.
can't say that i was feeling good the past few days, but the good thing is that i realised that i found myself a nice person to talk to.
every cloud has a silver lining huh. keke. you know who you are la hor. LOL. =/
okay, now now.
NEWS:
Shuxian's Birthday Chalet on 3rd of May, Saturday.
Location: Pasir Ris Aranda [i think.]
Inform her or tag here if you're going la. :D
Yet another news:
Remember about me mentioning about the taiwan trip thing? those who're interested to go, try to make it ley. :D by hook or by crook. keke. cos more or less i think we're confirmed going le. it's only a matter of with who, and how many people go nia. jason and me sure can make it de.. then nor i think should most likely be able to go.. hopefully can have a few girls along? =)
NYA. that's all for today. though i really wanna curse the guy who jumped at cck mrt this morning, but i guess there's no point to it.
my condolences to his family, even though i seriously think committing suicide is a bloodily foolish act which don't deserve any sympathy at all. -.-
some guys just somehow can get more than what they deserve to get, and yet they don't seem to treasure what they have at all.
they'll either stray, take their other half for granted, cheat, two time, whatsoever. classic examples of guys who think using the wrong head. _|_
from the past till now, i've always looked down on guys who make girls cry, for no matter what reasons. it's just so fxxking wrong. besides, i don't know how to console a girl, so i seriously hate it when i see girls cry, etc. all i can do is to sit beside the girl and listen to her, and provide tissues. what to say, i seriously don't know. that contributes to me despising guys who make girls cry as well.
i seriously don't know what to say anymore la. one by one i see the girls around me being upset over their boyfriends. and the fact is that it's not even worth being upset over them AT ALL.
and also, don't ever drag on a relationship that's doomed to fail because you can't let go/can't bear to, etc. to be blunt, that is seriously stupid. either work it out with the guy if you think you still want to salvage it, or to end it asap. just dragging it on, pretending to be oblivious to things that are already happening is never going to make it. a leopard doesn't change its spots. if the guy keeps doing something that upsets you, even if you were to voice it out, chances are he'd TRY to stop, but he'll end up at square one. and congrats, you'll end up wasting few weeks or few months of your life trying to patch up a sinking ship.
but i'm not saying to end a relationship once there're problems or dissatisfaction with the other person. first ask yourself, if it's even possible to be with him any longer, if it's possible for you to tolerate his flaws, is it even possible for him to change for you, and most importantly, do you even feel loved by him? answer those questions on your own, and work things out from there.
the one i've heard today is the fourth one i've got to know about in recent times. and by recent, it's less than what? two months or three? =/ seriously cannot make it. some guys are really not worth the tears girls are shedding over.
heard on the radio this morning.. was class 95 i think.
it's some programme where they invite the listeners to recommend books or something, then they recommended a book i've read before few months back..
five people you meet in heaven - mitch albom.
it's very meaningful la, to me, at least. =/ it's about this guy who died saving this little kid, then he goes to heaven and meet five different persons, who affected his life the most, for the better or worse. if i remember correctly, one was his mother, one was his father, one his teacher, etc..
maybe it's too early to ask, but up till now, which are the five persons who has the greatest impact on your life?
first should be my dad. his bad habits, made me not want to grow up like him, so i guess it was a good influence. not that my dad is a lousy one or what la. he's strict when he needs to, and shows care and concern as well, but just that he doesn't make a good husband. =/ but the underlying cause is actually money. he's a spendthrift la. and also quite a typical guy to place his 'buddies' before family. i don't know any of his buddies, but i guess so la. but he's getting more responsible now la. just that once in a while he'll splurge his money on 4D, toto, etc which my mum sometimes will just follow along.. typical singaporeans. -.- this influenced me lo.. that's why you don't see me gamble. but well, though admittedly, occasionally it's a good thing that they gambled though. =xx
next is my mum lo. keke. okay la. more of a good example. =/ but she nags alot. then i also become quite naggy. =x but she beats me hands down, i swear. and yeah, not easy to be a mum la. take care of the meals, laundry, cleans the house, worries about children's results, well-being of the whole family.. fall sick also cannot rest, etc etc. haha.. if i were to stereotype her, she'd be a perfect example of a noble mum. =x but yeah la. hahaha. it's hard not to be filial when you have a mum or parents lydat.
another one is my good friend.. though we're not as close anymore, but she was a good confidante and vice versa when we were close. haha, but admittedly, she confided in me 80% of the time. qixin.. keke. learnt quite alot from her la, and she's the first girl that i can just talk normally without any care of offending her or what. haha. cos i'm not that good at communicating with girls de la. it's better now, but i was those type of person when a girl talk to me, i'd just give short replies and will avoid looking into their eyes.. LOL. hahaha, well. now i try to avoid eye contact as well, unless.. =/ nvm about that. lol. yeah la. and also, i'm proficient in speaking in english is also thanks to her. i'm chinese speaking de ma. then only i'm english literate in my whole family. =/ so yeah, obviously i'd be chinese speaking right. then thanks to her, i'm now more comfortable with conversing in english, and to talk with girls, etc.. and also become more street smart la. i used to tell her that she's one of the two girls in my life. =/ with the other girl being the one i liked at that point of time. but more or less, after we graduated from sec school and entered ngee ann, we slowly drifted lo. now we've got our own separate lives. but i'm still quite grateful to her la, though i'm not going to admit that to her. LOL.
next is my upper sec english teacher, tan swee suan aka rosemary tan. hahaha. she's very different from the usual teachers la. in that she doesn't demand respect from us, but she'll still be able to gain them nevertheless. and she doesn't raise her voice at all. very calm and collected. which i admire in a teacher. i mean, you won't really appreciate a teacher if she/he were to shout at every little thing right. haha, i got to learn many qualities and lessons in life from her la. but too bad she quit teaching the year we graduated.
four for now.. can't really think of the fifth one. but hopefully there will be changes in the future lo.
time for some ranting.
i don't really appreciate it when people talk to me online, talking about nonsense, and then say not fun de, when i can't be bothered to entertain them. don't talk about dicks to me plox, i don't have that kind of fetish, will. -.- once in a long while, bullshit with each other, it's okay. but don't specially initiate a convo just to bullshit ley. -.- plus i'm specially irritable when i'm suffering from lack of sleep.
and it's damn ironic that some people whom i've advised not to do certain things when they asked, go ahead and do it anyway, end up regretting. fxxking stupid, i swear. what's the point in asking for opinions when you're already going ahead to do it. and what's the point in regretting when you've already done it and got yourself backed down in a corner. let's say for finances, in my case. my parents are getting old. my elder sis is suspected of having a major illness which i shall not say here. we've savings plus insurance money to last us for years PROVIDED no emergencies happen. but do you see me splurging all my money away the moment i've my hands on them? i don't really scrimp, and i can be generous if i need to, but i don't bloodily waste my money. gambling, smoking, drinking, all these. the first two are just wasting money outright, i don't engage in them. as for drinking, during social events, friends all on, wanna go, then i'll go. but i'll never ever initiate such an outing. but fxck, in the end it's still all up to your own priorities la. if you place the welfare of your family first, there's no need to teach you what to do. if you place your own welfare and enjoyment, etc first, then good luck to you. many things are just plain obvious from the actions alone.
but i said so much, i didn't even save a single cent during the whole of march. seriously screwed sia. gonna start slow. need to restrict my spendings this month to cover back my losses. kns, seriously damn scary. 4 digits become 3 digits within a month. that's effing alot ley. besides, it's not as if there wasn't any income during the month. =x i don't even dare to calculate my expenses now. april 10 hurry up and come plox. =/
chenwei came back to the office to help menghow with an errand, then it turned out that he and jiade [the F class guy who's one of the four interns along with me, jason and jasmine [some girl]] knew each other from secondary school.
then after lunch, we met up with the guy who shared his connection with me over at uob's. i can't recall his name off hand, but he was jason's trainee in SISPEC. seriously the world is damn small la.
then met up with jeffrey and jiaying briefly for them to use my levi's card for 25% discount. birthday month ma, =/ and since i don't think i'd be using it to get any jeans as of yet, might as well don't waste it lo. but bloody hell, jeffrey's damn rich. i thought 300plus bucks for a pair of jeans is damn ex already, he bought a 800+ bucks one. -.- but thanks to that card, i think it's around 500+ to 600+. =/
then went to cck to meet up with nor. omg la, on the train there, i saw this girl who looked alot like hirano aya!! so chio. =xxx i think around 70% alike. LOL. hirano aya is a japanese singer la. i've been using her photos as my msn display pics lately. but too bad i got to get off at cck. =/
then i was walking around while waiting for that ass who was still at home when i reached, i saw two forumers that i was close to more than a year ago. hahaha. THEN, after meeting up with nor and finished eating liao.. about to go home and i met the two of them again. LOL. small world. but the bloody cck lot 1 is even smaller. =/
oh ya, we had pizzahut. and kns la. i think everyone there would think that we're gays or something. while walking to our seats, i scanned the area. the other people there were either families or couples.. well, straight couples. LOL. then two guys.. =/ !#$!%!## so gay.
oh ya oh ya, might have a chance to go onsite. keke. good news sia. waiting for confirmation only. :D :D :D
Give a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a night. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life
familiar not, this bag? =/ kns, ever since i take the train every early morning from cck all the way to expo i keep seeing those OLs carrying the bag with LV plastered all over it. LV monogram. -.-
come on la. i see so many times i also can't see what's so nice about the design. zz. if you were to tell me they are just going for the brand.. i can accept, but what the hell, since you're already paying so much just for the brand, why not go for something of that brand that's less common? =/
and it's damn auntie, i swear. so so so so so fugly please.
okay. that's all for now. keke.
a man knocked on the fair lady's door, and called out to her behind the door.
"What are you afraid of? If it's the sun, I'll shelter you from it. If it's the darkness, I'll be your light. If it's the heat, I'll fan you with all my might. If it's the cold, I'll hug you tight.
So till you one day open the door, That is all that stands between us both. Just know that I won't go down without a fight. Till the day i earn my right."
