Lim Kan Wei
22/04/1989
Nan Hua Secondary School
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Enlisting on Sept 11 1130hr.

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IBM Thinkpad T30s are the worse laptops on earth man. =/ okay nvm. quite exaggerated.

right now, i'm surfing the net using the keys alone, because i don't have an usb mouse with me, the touchpad is disabled somehow or rather, and there's no way to enable it back on, AND the tiny red dot IBM is proud of, is spoilt and doesn't respond no matter how hard i try to bua it. =/

hokay. received a call this morning from the helpdesk for me to return the loan machine i am using right now, while my original shitty thinkpad is being serviced [the lcd screen and the motherboard]. so i went just now, and tried to return it. and they asked if i have received the original laptop back, so i said no, and it was really no. then they said the records say that it's with the user [meaning, me] now, so it should be with me. but really no la. wth. then they panic, ask around, throw arrows at each other. but luckily got one of them quite familiar with my case. imagine la, within 3 months i visited the place for.. 4 times, at least. hoho. so yeah, conclusion, they extended my loan, so i'm stuck with this mouseless laptop while they wait for the parts to arrive, they say [when in fact they are trying to locate the original laptop]. =/ hurray!

nyaha. it's 2.22. i will go off after i'm done with this entry. keke.

i'm not too sure if being observant is a good thing. more or less i am able to understand people abit better than average, but by being that, the tiny little flaws in people around me will seem more and more obvious each day, seeing that i am aware of their presence. and as time goes by, those flaws are the only things i see in everyone and i'll be blinded to their redeeming points. but familiarity breeds contempt. the more familiar you are with a friend, and the longer the time you spend with him/her, the more likely that you two will stop being friends. the closer you are with a person, usually, the more obvious his/her habits are to you. at first you might be able to ignore it, and brush it off as a one time thing, if it's something that don't agree with you. but how long can you ignore and brush it aside if his/her habits/actions persist? but which will you choose? to talk to him/her about it, or to try to keep a distance away from him/her?

witnessed countless of times of friends no longer being friends, when self-proclaimed brothers/buddies/sisters no longer talk to each other even when passing by each other. it's a pity, but it's just the way life is. if there's something as once a friend, forever a friend, then i think i'll have up to near hundred 'buddies' or friends. let's skip the kindergarten phase as i can barely remember anything from then. primary school, let's say i've .. hm. 20? then secondary school, the majority of the sec four batch, basketball club, dance [not that i was inside, but i was quite .. affiliated to the people there.], npcc [same as dance], the teachers, a handful of sec three juniors.. hm. i can't really count everyone, but at least also got 80 to 100 of them already. then come to poly, the three camps that i've been to, along with classmates.. =/ 200?

forget it man. abit cynical, but that's why i find it funny when i see people around me placing friends above themselves all the time. of course, when you give, the correct mindset is not to expect anything back. that's fine, cos it's the proper mindset, duh. but how long can you do that? forever? to give and not expect anything back? even if i can find one who is able to do that, i can safely bet i can't find one who can reciprocate him/her and do the same for him/her.

shit. i went out of point. -.- anyway, my point is that even though it's common for friends to fall out, it's still a pity to see that keep happening over and over again.

but of course, if you were to feel and see that everyone seems to be distancing themselves from you, try to reflect on your actions first. even, and just even if someone were to spread rumors about you, or maybe just voicing his/her own doubts about you loud, there's no smoke without fire. and honestly speaking, even if i usually were to stand one side and observe, it's sometimes difficult for me to remain neutral when my observations coincide with other people's comments.

2.55. LOL. i typed for half an hour or so seh. omg. sighs. nothing to rant about already.

i'm so bored.

OH OH. kns. i think i waited for a cab for an hour just now sia. super fucked. then the assholes keep jumping queue.. cos normally stand by the roadside and flag one ma. then assholes keep going a distance ahead of me to get the cabs, or they'll just cheat and call for cab. =/ but okay la. since i wasn't that urgent to reach the office so i didn't want to waste the extra 2.50 to call. =x

2.58. i shall go off. byebyebye.

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When I told God that I had fallen in love,


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fwah, i'm so tired/sleepy. :(

shouldn't have had that mocha last night at starbucks sia. thought that the caffeine wouldn't get to me, but it did. =/ went to sleep at 4am this morning, and i tossed and turned until 5+ at least before i finally dozed off. and i had my alarm set at 6.30. lawlawlawl. obviously i slept past it, and woke up at 9am instead.

argh. i'm having a hard time keeping myself awake just sitting at the office desk. and listening to some guy telling/teaching another guy on what he should do. =/ ooo~ a third guy joined in. si kaypo. LOL. okay la, actually i'm the kaypo one, eavesdropping on people's conversations. =x but they aren't exactly talking softly either. =(

omg man, we're getting more and more slack over at ibm sia. not good. went for lunch with jasmine just now. we went all the way from the office to the expo station, stood there and looked at the mrt route to decide where to have our lunch for.. 10 minutes i think. then finally decided to go bedok, by train, when there was a company shuttle bus waiting outside the office when we left. LOL. damn dumb. i think we left at 12 ba, promptly. then we had kfc, and sat there talk cock, and reached the office at 3.30+. LOL. and i only reported for work at 1130+ or so, i can't remember. keke.

hopefully no one spies on the interns, or the other interns don't bk (baotou/bunknife) me. LOL. or i seriously will fail the IAP seh. =/

nyaha. somehow or rather, i was talking about ghosts and stuffs with jasmine ba. then i realised that i haven't been experiencing them lately. =( at most i'll feel a chill at certain time/place, but other than that, nothing more. sian. LOL. okay la, not that i'm desperate to encounter any, but just that i find it weird that nothing is happening lately.

SIAN. more or less we self declare that our official time to knock off is 5pm le. LOL. an hour already. it's 4.41!! 20 minutes more. hehehe.

but nowhere to go ley, sian. :( but also about to be end of the month soon, better not anyhow spend sia. how much money do i have left in my acc? i think at most 300+. zz. kena taxed 2 bucks per month sia, cos my account has less than 500 bucks. /wrist

4.44! keke. anyway, if anyone of you read the news today, better be careful of making racist comments in your blog hor. keke. some retard scolded a malay guy he don't even know personally, and shoot all sort of nonsense, and he followed up by saying that it's his blog, he has the right to say WHATEVER he wants. LOL. i laughed at that sentence the most, among the whole entry. and some guy posted the link in a forum few days ago, but i only came across it last night. and apparently someone there reported the blog to the police. LOL. today's The New Paper came out with headlines: 'Police arrest S'pore blogger over alleged racist comments in posting - He ranted about stranger on MRT train.' LOL. i don't usually read/watch singapore news because there're hardly any news that are published by singapore media that's worth reading, but the headlines attracted me sia. seriously dumbass. i can write whatever i want, RIIIGHT.. =x and abit bo liao la, but if you were to read some singapore news articles, the one that hit today's headlines, for example, you'll see the phrase, 'local netizens blah blah blah', or 'blah blah blah among local netizens', they are just referring to the people who frequents this forum --> http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/forumdisplay.php?f=16

oh oh oh, did i mention that i began to count the LV classic monogram bags i see each day? LOL. okay la. actually i never purposely go count, just that i'll remember how many i've seen prior to seeing another one. i only went to count on purpose once, when i saw one coming from my left, two coming from my right, etc. LOL. i hit 12 on that day and night alone. gawdly.

okay! 2 minutes to 5. poof!

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i realise norvin's very lousy at deciphering my emotions from my entries. keke. =/

but anyway, i slept until damn song last night la. went home straight after work, didn't bathe or anything. changed out of my office wear, then slept all the way from 6+, 7 till this morning 3+, 4am sia. fwah. wanted to sleep more, but i realised my ipod and hp needed charging, so i got up and plugged in the cables and stuffs, but cannot get to sleep le. =/ cos already stood up and did a little physical work [okay la, also not say physical work, but just some movement la hor], then become energetic already. /wrist

time now: 3.33pm.

but anyway, quite a few things have been happening lately sia.

first the myanmar cyclone, followed by the china earthquake, followed by yesterday's LKY's wife being hospitalised. quite surprisingly, i hear alot of people commenting about china's earthquake and the hospitalisation of LKY's wife in a happy mood, or rather, xing zai le huo. first they talk about what only few thousands/few hundred thousands died, only less than 1% of the people there, whatever. then they prefer to have the whole country sink la, etc etc. o.0.. then the hospitalisation, i shan't say more, in case i end up visiting the ISD, but yeah, the general consensus is more than obvious la. =/

okay la. i shan't talk about all the karma la, retribution la, morals la, all those. that much is cliched already. but it's really fucked up to see singaporeans saying all those feng liang hua, when the victims haven't done anything personal to you or anyone related to you [maybe]. you can don't like them or don't feel sympathetic, whatsoever. but at least have a shred of decency to not curse people la. come on.

*poof*

okay. nuffed said. cos i lost my trail of thoughts. LOL. but the point is not to do what you don't want others to do to you. that's basically it la.

lawl. a few days ago arh, or last week, i can't really remember. someone said that i'm really self-centered. which i agreed. LOL. i would be lying if i said i don't find myself self-centered. been through abit much plus witnessed many unfortunate examples that i don't see any point in putting others or specifically someone before self anymore. once in a while, or maybe depending on situations, putting others before self is alright, i do that. but putting others before self all the time is just plain dumb. =/

nah, lazy to type so much cock, so i'll just end it off with a question ba.

let's say someone you treasure is about to die peacefully of old age, and likewise, the person treasures you a lot too. and you have a choice of switching place with him/her, to die in his/her place so he/she can live maybe as long more as you originally had, or would you not switch?

keke. no need to reply in my tagboard or whatever, just think it through, and screw the morals shit or whatever. but rather, what you personally feel, whether it's worth it to exchange your lifespan with your treasured person or not.

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i used to pride myself on my patience, in waiting for people or being a listening ear to someone, but somehow or rather, i just can't seem to have any patience in dealing with stupidity.

but nevermind. i don't even know where to start, so i shan't bother beginning, else i can't stop. stupidity knows no boundaries, i swear.

omg la, i'm sleepy like fuck. i should have slept, even if i were to turn up late for work.. for the numerous times.

AHHH. /wrist


what was i going to talk about.. hm. yeah, that.

sometimes it really turns me off when people try too hard. be it trying too hard to prove a point, or to try too hard to show concern for someone else. because too much is just simply too much. and the word 'too' is often put to use to show something negative, even if it's used in conjunction with something positive. too nice, too rich, too confident, etc. there's nothing wrong with being nice, being rich and being confident. anyone would want to be that, but when you go overboard, that's when people start to resent you for it. putting intentions aside, whether your intentions are pure or not, even the firmest of friendships would be strained by your actions.

showing too much concern for someone you have barely known and have not even met before, makes people question your intentions. it could be just pure concern, but that doesn't matter. perceptions are everything in society. you are, not who you really are, but who others see you are. you can be an anti-social person deep inside, but you know the basic courtesy, of greeting everyone you see with a smile, people around you will perceive you as a friendly person. who gives a damn about who you really are, other than people who really bothers, or are able to read beyond the facade. basically, it's simply 'what you see is what you get'. if you meet someone for the first time, what's the first impression of him is simply the impression that he chooses to give you. be it, that he might not be acting, or pretending, but how similar can your first impression of him be, to his real self? hardly.

let me digress. i also noticed that sometimes time doesn't really help people in understanding others. more or less, people will keep up a facade in order to protect themselves. pretending that they're okay, and cheerful when they're hurting deep inside. pretending to be crappy and happy-go-lucky when they are actually more matured than they seem to be. but maybe the people around them just don't seem to put in the effort to get to know the friends who have been by their side for so long more.

keke. forget it. i will just end it here. wait till i'm less sleepy then i'll rant again.

till then. hee.

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it's kind of funny at times to see people being more worked up than the people involved whenever something happens. 

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fwah, kns. finally completed my interim report. 

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i'm quite pissed. i don't even know how to begin. 

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