mehh.
Lim Kan Wei
22/04/1989
Nan Hua Secondary School
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Enlisting on Sept 11 1130hr.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008 @ 12:45 AM
can't get to sleep.
attempted to sleep at about 0015, but ended up tossing and turning about.
i've been having a difficult time falling asleep lately.
seems like i'll just think about all sorts of stuffs when i close my eyes.
absence makes the heart grow fonder, perhaps. but at the rate it's going, it's making my body grow tired-er.
recently i've had 4.. no, 5 friends saying the almost exact words, "why does shit always happen to me?" or somewhat along those lines. apparently shit's been pretty busy, splitting itself to at least 5 copies. =//
i don't even know whether to be amused or pissed when i see people acting like that. or maybe i'm just used to it.
i won't pity nor sympathise with them because i know that's not what they are looking for. but no, they aren't going to get my empathy if that's what they are looking for either. it's just not right when i see so many people around me acting as if they are the most pitiful soul on earth, or they are full of angst, lashing out at the unfairness that's been dealt to them.
funnily enough, i don't ever remember anyone promising me that all in life is going to be fair though. but fair enough, at least life is equally unfair to each and everyone.
emphatise with them long enough and i slowly realise that they are just .. self centered, in a way. that they think that the world revolves around them. the world prolly has few million axises, i think. of course, i'm not going to say something cliched/stupid as to ask them to compare themselves with those african kids, disaster victims, etc etc.. that's boring, and to be painfully honest, who really cares when you don't see their sufferings with your own eyes. but hey, let's bring it closer to home grounds, and use your own two eyes and look around you. just try to find someone you personally know who is actually happy and satisfied with what he/she has, and had not ever felt any tinge of unhappiness in his/her life at all before? some might actually say that their unhappiness are nothing as compared to yours, but guess what, yours is also nothing compared to some other poor fuck.
shit doesn't always happen to a single person. it happens to each and everyone of us.
better to spend some time working your way out of the filth rather than to waste time burying yourself even deeper by constantly whining and complaining. no one can help apart from yourselves. if you want help, ask for them explicitly, and not beat around the bush waiting for your friends to be able to read your minds suddenly.
in this world, you're born as an individual and you'll die as one. even your closest kin isn't obliged to help you out if he/she chooses not to. but hell, i'm sick and tired of repeating the same words over and over again, and i seriously doubt any one of the 5 who manages to come across this will ever take this huge wall of text in, but hey, it's been a long while since i've typed so much in my blog, so i don't really give a damn either. just don't let me hear/see you complaining if you don't wish to hear blunt words coming from me.
i was thinking about stating my family situation for a rough comparison, but i guess not. it's childish, and my situation isn't really something to be proud of. just be aware that i envy people who have normal healthy siblings in their family, to share their woes and happiness, or to contribute problems to. even that can be fun too, when you reflect back once you're older. but i'm not lucky enough to experience that ever in my life, so fxck it. :)
sigh, time seems to fly huh. after many blinks of the eyes, the end of attachment is finally approaching. no more segar lrt >> cck mrt >> je mrt >> tanah merah mrt >> expo station >> walk to ibm. the hell of a journey. now i'm wondering who are the lucky/unlucky shits who kena IBM next batch. they will only be choosing two, but i'm still trying to find out which two. keke.
but quite likely that they wouldn't be able to be as slack as us. hehe.. good learning experience i guess.
ibm isn't really that accessible, so i guess it makes the journey there more worthwhile than going there just to surf net. LOL.
i'm missing school already.. can't wait for next sem to start. :D
though admittedly, it isn't entirely because of me missing school, but that's another matter altogether.
i've wasted 40++ minutes on this entry. going to be tired again in the morning. zz.
hopefully jason can get us off on thursday. *crosses fingers*
well, i did say i will post the photo of my new acquired .. stuffs, but i'm quite reluctant because it's in a mess due to the wirings, but heck, here goes. =DD
the setup above isn't really updated since i haven't gotten my ps3, so there's only the wii.
yes, i know the brown thingy, i don't even know whether to call it a table or what, is damn pathetic, but that will change soon..
need to drop by IMM and spend some money again on a decent display surface.
so there, the PS3. a white one since my wii is also white, though the black one is cooler looking. but ah well, for aesthetics' sake.
the two games costed me 100 over bucks, so i'm stuck with them for a while now. and god, i'm addicted to metal gear solid 4. it's going to be the best game of all times. well, one of them, at least. as for GTA IV, the gameplay is essentially the same, so i'm still not that hooked onto it yet.. but still, it's still a hell of a game. keke.
but aiyah, the games are going to leech me dry. :(
okay, nuffed said. off to bed. baibai.
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