the deafening silence
mehh.
Lim Kan Wei
22/04/1989
Nan Hua Secondary School
Ngee Ann Polytechnic
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    Tuesday, October 28, 2008 @ 2:03 AM
    patience.

    tried and tested, and time after time the saying that familiarity breeds contempt rings true again and again.

    zz. i don't think i'm more patient than the average person, and already, my patience is running thin regarding someone and yet he just had to do things to irritate me even further.

    don't fucking push your blame to others when it's your own bloody mistake to begin with.
    especially when the person is already kind enough to help you and yet you can just blame him when you forget your own fucking stuff?
    thanks, really.

    and to think why you always complain about you doing so much for others and others don't seem to appreciate it.
    just think for your fucking self for once.

    and also, why can't people just realise that i just can't be bothered if i don't reply smses or on msn?
    must i make it loud and clear that i don't give a shit for them to understand?


    and this.

    1:42:33 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: weeeerreer
    1:42:35 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: hahahaajz
    1:42:44 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: zzz ml wad time cklass
    1:42:46 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: ?
    1:42:50 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 wake; .: 11.
    1:43:13 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: icic
    1:43:25 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: beteer wakte up mealryu tml then
    1:43:29 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: ealry*
    1:43:37 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: early*
    1:43:46 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: i go sl[p l;e
    1:43:53 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: wanna die
    1:43:55 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: loiapz
    1:43:58 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: liaoz
    1:47:15 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: zzz ilm not typing crapam i>?
    1:47:16 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: zzz
    1:47:28 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: wtf is i purpisoely one
    1:47:30 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: zzz
    1:47:34 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 wake; .: kkkk.
    1:47:57 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: nvm mi9nd
    1:48:06 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: i go slp le
    1:48:07 AM Tuesday, October 28, 2008 xx...: zz



    i do think that i'm good in languages, but i'm not apt at deciphering rubbish.
    for fuck's sake, just go to sleep when you're drunk and not go on msn and irritate everyone you talk to.

    --------------

    kk. enough said.

    thought i'd just waste this long weekend sleeping, but ended up going to chevrons for karaoke.
    was dozing in and out of sleep until yingwei's sms at 3+pm before i was willing to get out of bed. =/

    it's so cheap to sing there la.
    i didn't know. =x
    never go before.
    would spent near 30bucks excluding cab, food, etc if we were to go kbox/party world/topone but i only spent 12 bucks? for finger food and the karaoke.
    but admittedly, cos it's by room so it's cheaper. keke.

    what else..
    oh, the free flow drinks..
    a pity that there's only coke and sprite, but i guess i shouldn't expect too much when it's already free flow. =/
    well, the company was good, which is obvious. =//

    blah blah blah. nothing to say anymore.
    tata.


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    Wednesday, October 22, 2008 @ 11:54 PM
    five

    great. another movie to add to the list.

    20th century boys.

    okay la. based on the mixed reviews that i found online, i was expecting the show to be a disappointment.
    but then surprisingly, it was a lot better than i thought.

    20th century boys is a manga adaptation. it's about this group of friends who wrote a book of prophecy about how and when the world will end, and that they will save the world from ending when they were in elementary school. but eventually, they ended up burying up the book and their items, vowing that they will dig them back up when the time comes for them to save the world.

    20 years later, people began dying from a strange virus across the world, and the cult appeared, sporting a symbol that was familiar to all of them.

    blah blah blah..

    not gonna spoil the story, but for me, i enjoyed the movie cos i've read the manga in anticipation of the movie already.
    to those who haven't read the manga, it'll still be nice if they like to actually think, while watching the movie, instead of those action or chick flicks where they can just leave their brains behind.

    the story will be a little messy at the start cos the story consists of a lot of characters.
    not to spoil the movie, but to ask people to take note..

    - there will be a scene where someone takes a photo of the group.
    the photo will be there for a second or two, but take a good look at the photo.
    something, or rather, someone's missing.

    - the people who dies might not necessarily end up being dead.

    - the huge thing that xxxx is standing on near the end of the show is not a robot, but rather an exhibit.
    it is not stated nor shown explicitly in the show, so i think people who didn't know will assume that it's a robot.

    - the only one who can make prophecies for real is the old man. no one else.

    kaes. all in all that should be enough for people who haven't watch to take note of the points in the movie.
    the show is pretty long. 2hr+. but if you can, try to stay after the credits to watch the trailer for the sequel.

    and yeah, i admit that the title of the movie is damn.. boring-ish. lol.
    i prolly won't be interested in the movie if i didn't read the manga, actually. =x


    and yeah, i do like the show, or else i wouldn't be blogging about it. LOL.


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    Sunday, October 19, 2008 @ 7:41 PM
    movies

    godly. just this week alone, i've watched eagle eye, max payne, tropic thunder and house bunny.

    but well, thankfully the movies weren't bad.
    max payne wasn't good, but the visual effects were good enough to redeem it.
    the rest are good, i think.

    well, with that said, my moolah has diminished to a miserable 50+ bucks to last till next month. =/
    dies.

    btw, i wanna say that i think it's damn rude when someone keeps giving a black face whenever we go out.
    like wtf sia. show smlj attitude. zz. not happy then don't go out with us. simple as that.


    okay. had a bad stomach late last night and just now.
    prolly due to the spicy ramen i had last night for dinner.
    Beppu Menkan Ramen Restaurant.
    keke. when ordering right, need to specify what spicyness i want, with 1 being the minimal and 8 being the most spicy.
    choices were 1, 2, 4, 6, 8.
    so i tried 2 and thankfully, it was just my maximum. =//
    or maybe 4. but didn't dare to try.
    anyway, the food weren't bad.
    can try next time. keke.
    but i shall stick to 1 next time, or i'll end up having a bad stomach. -.-


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    Thursday, October 16, 2008 @ 11:35 PM
    change.

    well, school has finally started, after near 8 - 9 months without attending lectures, doing labs, etc.

    so far so good, though i'm still in some sort of a holiday mood. [ooo, it rhymed.]
    francis teo is a better lecturer than i thought. so much better than law yin tak. that john. -.-

    kanna.. =/ the same old cranky indian woman as usual, i suppose.
    started out by offending all those latecomers and tries to be funny and joke around with the class afterwards.

    oh ya! the IS classes. i totally wasn't paying attention during the Living in the Information Era class, but i think next week's class will be in the library - Jupiter room 3rd floor. but block 34 is so fricking ulu. -.- i entered the building from the second floor cos i walked up the road just right outside of it. then i couldn't find any lift, so i walked up the stairs, and tadah, a locked door blocking my way. >.< had to make my way down to first floor, walk one round to the other end of the building then take the lift up to sixth floor. zz!

    then WISP. the lecturer. some hao lian weirdo. can't be bothered to say too much. but wah lao. really sibei hao lian.



    anyway, what i really wanted to say..

    it's something really obvious but i realised that everyone's seem to be changing.
    well, the most drastic and surprising one should be ronghuang's, i guess.
    he's beginning to watch his diet nowadays and is more willing to go out with the rest of us. keke. and some other thing that i can't say, of course. =/

    but yet, there are still things that just don't change.
    example is that people still can't stop talking to me when it's obvious that i'm just not interested. -.-

    example:

    xxxx
    11:53 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    damn! hahaz.. saw the review for blah blah blah...

    wake; .
    11:53 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    icic..

    xxxx
    11:53 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    compare to blah blah blah...
    11:53 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    blah blah blah..

    wake; .
    11:54 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    ooo.

    xxxx
    11:55 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    blah blah blah..
    11:55 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    LOL

    wake; .
    11:57 Thursday, October 16, 2008
    lol.


    yeah. i wanna daiii~ >.<
    tell me, is it not obvious that i'm not interested?!!!!11111oneoneone
    [edited the convo just in case.]

    mmkay, nvm.


    okay. somehow i lost track of my thoughts again.
    i'll continue another day. tata~


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    Friday, October 10, 2008 @ 5:17 AM
    不, 完美




    你常常說 我很完美
    沒人能取代 我給的一切
    我就以為 我努力更完美
    我們就會永遠

    完美並不美 我們多虛偽
    你讓我的好 變成一種罪
    完美並不美 當你愛了誰
    我的完美也只是 不完美

    後來你說 我太完美
    值得更好的 陪在我身邊
    你不是我 你怎麼能體會
    你有多麼珍貴

    完美並不美 我們多虛偽
    你讓我的好 變成一種罪
    完美並不美 當你愛了誰
    我的完美也只是 不完美

    完美並不美 我們多虛偽
    你讓我的好 變成一種罪
    完美並不美 當你愛了誰
    我的完美成了罪

    完美並不美 我們多虛偽
    你讓我的好 變成一種罪
    完美並不美 當你愛了誰
    我的完美也只是 不完美

    愛人的那一個,往往在不完美中給完美;
    被愛的那一個,卻總是在完美中找不完美。


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    was chatting with wenqi a short while ago and she was saying that she's reading a few blogs which were quite saddening.
    took a glance at the blogs and i didn't feel like reading on.
    maybe i wasn't in the mood to handle all that, or maybe i've never tasted true sadness on my own before for me to face others'.

    but then i opened up one of the link once again and read.
    wenqi posted the entry dated around may, but i skipped to the latest entry after glancing through the particular post.
    perhaps i feel better with reading from the end, rather than to go through all the process, though i guess the blogger didn't have any option but to live through her suffering like she did.

    i think that i'm a person that's extremely hard to get surprised by anything. i can't say that i've lived a long life, but as far as i've seen, i've gradually learnt what to expect, and what not to. and i can't even smile at the fact that i am never ever surprised whenever i hear and read stories about guys betraying girls. sure, it could be due to the fact that i'm dulled by the countless stories of atrocities done by guys to girls.

    guys may argue that guys can be victims in some cases as well.
    sure. but i'm also very sure that guys can cope so much better than girls in such cases.

    which somehow reminded me of this .. incident i just heard.
    guy A & girl B.

    A is this guy with a history of being emo, over liking this girl for years, but can never progress anywhere further from just being friends. his methods are awkward, and will often result in the girl turning off, rather than liking him. but no matter what people around him says, he persists on his ways. on two occasions, he seemed to move on, but.. =/

    first time, he got to know this girl online and apparently they hit off well.
    but subsequently, he began to have a liking for the girl and he started his awkward methods of wooing the girl.
    appear offline when the girl isn't online if he doesn't want to talk to anyone else.
    and will appear online immediately when he sees the girl online, just to talk to her.
    he also began to track and will say at times that the girl went offline 13 minutes ago [accurate to the last digit], and he shouldn't have bathed, etc.
    he also reads the girl's blog fervently and saved the girl's photo in his phone without anyone else's knowledge.
    at the same time, the girl managed to hit it off well with this mutual friend of theirs and coincidentally, that other guy was her senior in school.
    this didn't sit well with A and he actually questioned the other guy whether he likes the girl or not.
    eventually, the girl found out and felt very turned off and decided to delete him off his msn and changed her blog address, cutting off all contacts with him.

    A became emo yet again, which lasted for about a few months, perhaps, and he went back to emo-ing over the initial girl whom he liked for years.
    the rest of us just let him be and let him carry on his rants.
    until recently, he met girl B.
    as a joke, we all thought, he called her dear, darling, etc.
    B took it in her stride initially, but it got from bad to worse that she had to tell him to stop it.
    so he did.
    but he tried to find ways and means to get himself closer to her, even though he states that he only treats B as a friend, nothing else.
    ... [i'm feeling that it's getting quite longwinded, so i shall cut it short.]

    basically, history seems to be repeating itself all over again.

    which made me change my impression of him considerably.
    to put it bluntly, this type of guys is simply called 贱.

    read yw's today's entry and i was at a loss for words to tag in her tagboard.
    but i particularly agree with what she said about guys. =/
    and ironically speaking, i'm glad to be a guy cos i don't think i'd like guys were i to be a girl instead.
    there's a valid reason why you see lesbian couples everywhere in town. =//


    random quotes:

    would you marry someone you love, or would you love someone you marry?

    就让我慢慢学习
    学习悲伤的时候
    不闭上眼睛
    趁眼泪还没形成之前
    就在空气中被蒸发掉
    - 元大鹰 篮球火



    regarding my choice for title, it came to me while i was reading this article:
    http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/business/7660409.stm

    if there's a debt clock for us guys to girls, i wonder how many digits would it need?


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    Sunday, October 5, 2008 @ 9:31 PM
    heehee.





    just spent few minutes 'zhng-ing' my msn.

    <333

    okay. that's all i wanted to blog about. keke.


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    Friday, October 3, 2008 @ 11:16 PM
    back!

    okay. i've went and is now back from taiwan with jason and william.

    the trip wasn't bad, but it's a pity that we couldn't enjoy it more.

    let the photos do the talking. keke.


    me on the plane:
    a notice in the hotel room we're staying:
    remember! children can't be reached!!
    the single trip tokens to take their mrt:


    the famous shilin street!! <333


    bloody william mistook me for the pole. -.-
    that's why i was screaming. :'(

    more photos here: http://s35.photobucket.com/albums/d160/wakein/Taiwan/?start=all

    i'm lazy to post anymore of them, so just visit the link for the photos ba.
    wait for them to load first though.

    had quite a few of my first-time experiences at taiwan.
    first time encountering typhoon for example. LOL.
    was pretty fun though, and was lucky that i didn't get to experience the full blown one.
    the location we were at were just within the radius.
    but the winds were insanely strong.
    and the trees were bending over seh.

    so, we also kena 'mobbed' by pimps asking if we wanted girls. =/
    was abit taken aback, but thankfully nothing happened.
    thought they would really get violent if we rejected, but guess i think too much already.

    and i tried tarot card reading for the first time.
    didn't really know what to expect from it, but it's pretty fun.

    first i asked that whether it's advisable for me to continue studying or not, and she asked me to write down my name.
    then wrote le and she analysed that the 伟 character is suitable to work/study in the IT field and she asked whether i'm intending to pursue a career in that field or not.
    whether it's accurate or just a coincidence, i don't know. but i answered yes.
    so she continued, saying that i can progress in IT field and will have good results from that.
    then she added that from my name, i'm a very kind person, but i should be aware of the fact that the world isn't as kind as i think.
    further on, she added that i shouldn't worry too much, especially about my family's finances as it wouldn't be much of a problem should i continue in IT. as long as i don't 三分钟热度.

    then we did the tarot card reading, which disappointed me a little, but i shan't talk about it. =xxx

    so overall, be it the good part and the disappointment part, the person was pretty accurate.
    though i'm not so sure whether i'm really kind. =///
    cos it's true that i find myself quite suited to do IT, and i do have an interest in continuing.
    and more or less i've planned to continue in this line.
    the person was also accurate when she said that i worry about my family's finances, which i really did.
    but it wasn't a major concern ba.
    and the 三分钟热度 is damn true la! LOL!
    kickboxing, going for jap lessons and even learning driving. =x
    took only a short while nia.
    though jap lessons were because i only intended to learn the basics before self-learning the language.

    can't say i believe it totally even though it surprised me for the person to be this accurate. =/

    shall end here for now. keke.

    下雨天 by Lara from 南拳妈妈 is a nice song. addicted to it now.





    <333


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    wakeyy: