sometimes i really do think that i'm a misfit. i can be found within a number of cliques, but .. i'm never really there, per se.
or rather, i don't really find myself feeling wanted. is more like, oh you're here. hi. kind of thing.
maybe things that i do are just not enough. just short of making it. short hur.
i wish i could just point out the reason why i'm feeling so terrible. but i just can't. and i wish i'm a little less observant and sensitive than i am. ignorance is bliss after all.
sigh. shall just go sleep. today wasn't a great day, though nothing in particular happened. =/
ignore the previous post. it doesn't mean anything... well, it DID, but it doesn't now. LOLLL.
anyway, i've a sickening sore throat that simply refuses to go away. and fate dictates that i had to make it worse, by eating mcdonald's for lunch, sing k in the evening, followed by long john silvers'.
ahh well. it's getting pretty silent with the poly cliques! with the attachment, university, WLT, work, army, navy stuffs going on. and i have nothing. goddammit. LOL.
6 more weeks to go! people kindly see me until sick during these few weeks. :D =xxxxx
and i'm damn broke recently. i still gotta get some misc. stuffs for army too. phone, watch, for eg. :(
i've been having a bad stomach the whole day, and it's not good, especially when i had to spend the day before without an appetite. and i lost my voice briefly, just to top it up. honeyed lemon water works wonders, really. at least i can hear myself talking now.
anyway, i came a quote by george carlin, so i went to google all of his quotes. these are a few that i found hilarious.
If you live long enough, sooner or later everybody you know has cancer. I knew a transsexual guy whose only ambition is to eat, drink, and be Mary. You can prick your finger — just don’t finger your prick. Ever notice that (while driving) anyone going slower than you is an idiot, but anyone going faster is a maniac? Isn’t it a bit unnerving that doctors call what they do “practice”? I don’t have a fear of heights. I do, however, have a fear of falling from heights. I have as much authority as the Pope. I just don’t have as many people who believe it. "I am" is reportedly the shortest sentence in the English language. Could it be that "I do" is the longest sentence? Death is caused by swallowing small amounts of saliva over a long period of time.
so on. i haven't been in a blogging mood lately, so forgive me for the dry spell. meanwhile, some songs.
went to send jessica off at the airport.. she's going off to aussie to study. lols. i think i know around five who went aussie to study already. dammit. ns waste my 2 years.
after that, had dinner at popeyes then went vivo to chill for a couple of hours and we went dbl o. gg.
the clubbing was quite unexpected, but thankfully there were girls these time round, albeit only 2. bel and qixin. lols. haven't clubbed with them before. so i was a little surprised that they quite 'fang de kai'.. cos more or less, the girls that i know somehow tend to belong to the more conservative side. LOL.
this post is taking more time than i expected, so i shall end soon.
this trip was significantly more fun than the previous one. and i suspect there's another clubbing trip coming soon.. apparently the girls who wasn't able to go for yesterday/today's intend to go during ladies' night either this coming wed or the next. LOL.
ps: one good thing is that i only spent the 25 bucks + cab fare for today. i don't even know who the hell paid for the alcohol running around in my blood now. LOL.
can't really remember the sequence but it was a variety of situations.
i remember myself seeming to go back to some sec school where me and a few friends [i noticed 2 primary school friends, should have more] share our experience in tertiary education with them, etc. and one of them was making strange noises while hiding behind the person sitting in front of him to disturb the class.
then it somehow led to me looking for my specs. cos in real life i keep my specs on my computer table, the area where you usually have the keyboard. you can pull out the thing and all.. i removed the keyboard and placed my specs there instead since i wasn't using the desktop anymore. so anyway, i somehow pulled the thing out to find my specs [even though i was still at the school. lol.] i found 20+ over pairs of specs instead of my 3 pairs. then it led to a search of my specs. LOL.
next scene, i went with a bunch of friends [i think. i don't seem to remember or recognise who they are] to smoke..? something i guess. then we just went to some ulu place where a few bikers left their bikes lying around. we just took the bikes and some pot-like thing and rode off..
then the scene was at some.. event? carnival? i was doing stunts with the bike. trying to evade people while stunt jumping on platforms, etc. then after that, i tried to join a few tournaments which i can't remember what, and some guy i was with came back and said he won some random tournament. i think.
then some smart dick in the neighborhood decided to drill his wall and woke me up.
super weird dream. lol. i suspect the sec school dream was due to me being in the vicinity of nan hua yesterday, so maybe subconsciously i was thinking about sec school, then the smoking thing was cos i came across some guy in hwz forums asking about why smoke marijuana in amsterdam [where it's perfectly legal], but come back to sg will kena charged for drug abuse if kena caught. lol.
arh well. interesting, seeing that i haven't been dreaming in a long while.
